In Reply…

This is a reply to unfitting’s comment on my post, “Reasons”:

She said that where I feel like I’m watching my mum die slowly, many people feel low and like that. I’m not arguing that other people don’t have similar situations, and I’m definately not saying I have it worse than anyone else.

She also said that my mum would feel the same way about me. Feel like she’s watching me die, too. I can’t agree with that, because to my family, everything is normal. The only problem I have is ‘minor depression’, because that was what I was diagnosed before I even said about food and self harm and the suicidal stuff. It’s progressed since. She also has no idea about the eating problems, because whereas most people with ED’s who say that they aren’t thin, I’m being truthful.

I’m called, “slim”. I’m the same size I always was, because I’m not anorexic. If anything I’m bulimic, but to be honest EDNOS is probably what they would call me. I flit between tendencies, and my weight ups and downs, but not enough to make a difference to my appearance with clothes on.

So actually, she isn’t watching me slowly destroy myself, because she has no idea. Maybe she is watching me self-destruct, but she doesn’t know it, and so isn’t being harmed.